So as you would know if you have read my previous blogs, I was searching day and night for a job. Well for the first time in my life I worked so hard and got what I set out for!! I got a job!!!! Thank god haha
It’s so crazy how life works and every day things can become so different to the day before let alone a week or year before. It would have never crossed my mind 5 years ago that tomorrow I would be waking up and going to work, laying in bed, watching Netflix, drinking my tea and getting ready to go to sleep for work tomorrow. God I am actually proud of myself. I never thought I would truly get out of the ditch I was in, I thought I had dug myself a bottomless pit, turns out if you really want something and you put every bit of energy you possibly could you will make it.
Now that I think about it, I’ve done it a few times without even acknowledging it. I have definitely over come some massive obstacles in the last 5 years. I’m so happy to be where I am, and that I am a ‘success story’.
It’s really hard when people around you don’t support you, that’s probably the biggest thing! I have learnt a lot about friendships lately and I am so glad I have the very few close friends I have and I honestly don’t know how they have stuck around through all the bullshit! I’ve done some pretty fucked up shit, lets be honest, I probably don’t deserve them but one thing I have always tried to do is be there, just be there for them as they have for me! And it’s brought us so close. Nothing in life compares to your family and I would call my best friends my family. 100%! So if you have a best friend whether it be 1 or 2 or 10 just hold them tight and let them know how much you appreciate them, because I can assure you they will love to hear it. It will mean a lot.
In saying that I have lost every other friend in my life, which I can’t say is such a bad thing.. I need to be who I want to be, and I believe it’s a lot easier to do better when you are around supportive people who want you to do well for YOURSELF! I’ve realised 99% of the people I have associated with in my life have all been in my life for their own interest and it sucks because I genuinely liked them. But I guess not everyone is who they seem to be. I don’t hear from anyone now that I’m doing good and it sucks because I have reached out, but because I won’t hang out they don’t want to know about it. Which is so sad!!! Because most of them are going through what I’ve been through. Friends are so important, it really sucks when you have no one!
But sometimes you need to go through it to grow through it and I can’t be any more happier with the people I have in my life now.