I feel like the days are getting better, easier and my life is becoming more full.. and I love it!
Life can be so unpredictable and sometimes we deal with things that just seem so fucking surreal. It’s like all this crazy shit has happened in my life and I’m a completely different person now. Honestly, drugs fuck you up so bad. I have never realised exactly how bad and what it does to you and the people around you.
It’s really so hard having to deal with and live with all of the things that I have done and the decisions I have made in the past 12 years, no matter what you say or do nothing will prepare you for the day you realise what you have done… that’s one thing I never thought would affect me! I don’t really know many people that have been able to over come addiction, and I definitely know myself how hard it is. I just wish that they knew they could do it, and life is so much better. But it is by far one of the hardest things, living sober with the aftermath of the damage I caused all of those years.