Another opens, isn’t that what they usually say? Haha. I feel like I have a fresh start, it’s like I’ve closed the door on a part of my life and I’ve finally opened the right door 🚪
I decided to get some real, wanted help for my health and finally feel like I’m on a good path. It’s like I woke up one day and was like hey I’m sick of not being the best version of me I can be. I know I have so much to offer and I don’t know why for as long as I can remember thought that I didn’t have to be that person. I never realised how good life can be if you really want it to be, if you really want the best things in life, genuinely. Materialistic things can make you happy for a moment but what happens when that moment ends? It’s like your back down in the mud just dragging along… day by day… I don’t know how I lived like that for so long! It was miserable. The best things in life definitely have to be earned, you have to want it and you have to do the best things for yourself to make that possible. You 100% get what you put out.
I love that I have been non-stop trying to find a new job, and trying to stay healthy and giving up some shitty habits. Pot for starters! I’ve been a long time smoker and I just feel so good, I never realised how good I feel and how much more I can get out of life now it’s just amazing the difference, I never noticed how consuming it is to have that habit before and how much it affects my relationships. Getting mental health under control also has never in my life felt so easy and great! Who would have thought you can just decide in a moment that you deserve more, you deserve to be happy. I believe if I can do it, anyone can! It’s such a big thing to change your life and I wish there was something I could do to help people understand that it can be done, it doesn’t have to be hard if you don’t want it to be. There is so much more to life whether someone has an addiction, mental health, family/relationship problems anything really, you just have to want it, someone will always be there to help if you really really want it.
Nerves always get the best of me… I usually find something to be anxious about in every single situation haha my palms literally sweat thinking about my anxiety! But right now I’ve never wanted it so bad because I know that every decision I’m making is literally bettering every aspect of my life and I couldn’t be more happier. 🦋💕